W A R N I N G !

"Ang dami mu insecurities.

Sa buhay, sa trabaho, sa relasyon. And just to

compensate for these insecurities you make other

pe ople miserable with

their own lives."

- Khalel.

W A R N I N G !

Avoid having the guy in the picture as your friend!

"Love me...then hate me..."

"I am nothing but a pain in the ass!"

"that I would be good even if i did nothing
that I would be good even if i got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds
that i would be fine even even if I went bankrupt
that i would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that i would be great if I was no longer queen
that i would be grand if i was not all knowing
that i would be loved even when i numb myself
that i would be good even when i am overwhelmed
that i would be loved even when i was fuming
that i would be good even if i was clingy
that i would be good even if i lost sanity
that i would be good
whether with or without you "

- Mantra

mantra and the forbidden questions!

1. How old were you when you lost your virginity?
I was touched when i was 7 years old by our straight neighbor.

2. Worst thing done while drunk?
throw empty bottles at the crowd.

3. Have you slept with a Multiply contact?
never.

4. Have you ever cheated when you were in a relationship?
never.

5. How far how you gone to check if your partner is cheating you?
Sneaking on his mobile while he's asleep or when he's at the bathroom. I even ask him to give me his cellphone.

6. Mancrush [Girlcrush], 1 local and 1 foreign celebrity?
Local: Dennis Trillo
Foreign: Brendan Fehr

7. Last time you pleasured yourself?
Just this morning.

8. How big is your wang (dick-size)?
6.5 inches.

9. What's the 8th message on your inbox, and who sent it?
From Mcc Joey: "pasensya na at baka mamaya makapa pa kita!" Goodluck sa kin!

10. Kissed in public?
Yes with my girl bestfriend!

11. How many one-night stands did you have?
3! im sure of it.

12. Craziest place you've done it with?
Right beside my bf's mother. (take note: we sleep together in one bed!) i just love the rush!

13. Have you slept with anyone famous?
Yes. Once.

14. Do you have a Sex tape out there? In YouTube? In Multiply? Or naked pictures?
None I can remember.

15. Have you been in a threesome?
Haven't.

16. Tried illegal drugs. What drugs?
YES. E! and Valium.

17. How many (if you can still count them) have you slept with?
Can't remember.

18-24. Dude we all know you’re gay, so just admit it.
Uma.Piolo.Marvin Agustin.

25. Have you ever had an indecent proposal?
Many times and counting

26. The worst billboard in Edsa.
Ellen's Beauty Clinic.

27. Funniest TV Commercial.
VCO shampoo commercial! Male version.

28. When was the last time you watched or read a porn material?
Just now.

29-34. If you can use an email to describe 5 people plus yourself, what would that be?
pass.

35. What will be your pornstar name and what will be the title of your first porn movie?
Ian pa din. Balatan ko ang saging mo!

36. Worst TV show?
Mostly from GMA.

37. Spit or Swallow?Spit.

38. Longest time when you were "doing it" with someone?
5 hours

39. Shortest time?
3 minutes?

40. Last time you had sex with someone?July 1, 2007

*some questions require multiple answers (FQ 18 and 29). If you don't complete the anwers to these questions, answer the "optional" questions below.
Worst thing you did to your friend?
Iwanan sya nung hoholdapin nako.so sya ang naholdap!

What's your favorite sex position? Missionary.

If you HAVE TO sleep with a multiply contact, who would that be? I dont go for it.

What's ONE secret that you haven't revealed to anyone but you're willing to reveal here? I love chocolates!

PINK of Health

I'm lyin' here on the floor

where you left me

I think I took too much

I'm crying here,

what have you done?

I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support,

there's ashortage in the switch,

I can't stay on your morphine,

cuz its making me itch

I said I tried to call the nurse again

but shes being a little bitch,

I think I'll get outta here,

where I can Run

just as fast as I can

To the middle of nowhere

To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill

Instead of makin' me better,

you keep makin' me ill

You keep makin' me ill

I haven't moved from the spot

where you left me

This must be a bad trip

All of the other pills,

they were different

Maybe I should get some help

I can't stay on your life support,

there's ashortage in the switch,

I can't stay on your morphine,

cuz its making me itch

I said I tried to call the nurse again

but shes being a little bitch,

I think I'll get outta here,

where I can

Run just as fast as I can

To the middle of nowhere

To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill

Instead of makin' me better,

you keep makin' me ill

You keep makin' me ill

Thanks for making me FIGHTER!

my mask

How could you stand just watching me

slowly fade from this place?

I seemed so happy

to put on my clown face.

How could you only sit there,

As I scattered,

pieces in the wind?

Finally I found a place where I could belong,

No need for a ‘wish I could be there face’.

I sat there naked and you just stared,

You offered me no hope.

I fell to pieces.

A crumpled pile of lost dreams,

The land of lonely things.

You gave me no comfort when I was bare,

Silent and all alone.

No tear you shed for my broken body,

Only when I was beautiful,

You gave me a place that I could call home.

My rage, my wrath, my face, my mask,

What was it all for?

You didn’t love me for me,

You only loved the mask,

that covered the me before.

mantra on politics

i really hate politics. i hardly speak on where i stand about politics. yes, i have my list of who i think deserves a spot on senate or malacanang but i choose to discuss it with myself. yes, with myself! Minsan pagnagkataong may mga kasama ako and make comments about politicians or the president, honestly, they irritate me. Kung magsalita kasi parang alam lahat. wala ka na marinig kundi puro reklamo. kesyo, di na umasenso ang pilipinas. kesyo kilalang kurakot,madaming kabit o sugalero. minsan kriminal pa daw. Ang di ko lang maintindihan ay kung bakit imbes na pag aralan nalang muna nila kung ano ang nakakabuti para sa bansa at saka nila tignan kung anu na nagawa ng nakaupo. Hindi yung puro dada at magrereklamo maghapon dahil hindi nagustuhan ang nagawa ng kasalukuyang presidente. Ano nga ba ang totoo? ano nga ba ang alam mo? Mahirap kasi sa mga pinoy gusto pag may binoto at nakaupo na ay sa loob ng isang araw ay mapapaganda na kaagad ang buhay nila. Na malalagyan na kaagad ng laman mga tiyan nila. Na maayos na kaagad mga buhay nila samantalang sila sa sarisariling buhay nila ay puro naman tamad. Maraming beses ko na narinig na si Presidente Gloria ay hindi nararapat sa pagjkakaupo nito sa malacanang kasi sa syang kurap at mandarambong. At madalas ibida si Erap kasi para daw sa mahirap. Pero napagaan ba ni erap ang buhay ng mahihirap? hindi ba sya naging kurap? hindi ba sya babaero? at sugalero? ano nga ba ang nagawa nya sa ekonomiya? sa buhay nag bawat pilipino? ano ba ang nagawa ni erap sa PISO? sa milyon milyong pinoy na wala trabaho? di ko lang talaga maintindihan kung bakit tayong mga pinoy mahilig magreklamo. Sa sarili naman nating buhay mga tamad at umaasa lang tayo.Pag di nakuntento kung ano anong paninira ang naiisip sa nakaupo. Hay! nagpapagod ka lang sa kakadada. di ako nagsasalita kasi pro-GMA ako...tignana lang natin mabuti kung ano ano na ang nagawa ng mga taong pinaniniwalaan natin.

Minsan pilitin mo mang salubungin ng ngiti ang paglubog ng araw

madalas sumasabay sa pagkalat ng dilim

ang takot sa sarili.

Takot na baka di na muling masilayan ang araw.

Minsan pilitin mo mang kalimutan ang nakaraan, Gaya ng pagsapit ng gabi

ito'y kusang dumadating.

Di maiwasang matakot.

Matakot na baka bukas di ka silayan ng araw

at patuloy kang lamunin ng lungkot at takot.

Minsan panalangin ng puso kong pagod

sana wala ng gabi.

sana wala na ang lukot at takot na kaakibat sa pagsapit nito.

Upang makatulog ng mahimbing.

upang saya ang laging nadarama.

Hanggang ngayon ay di mawari kung saan galing ang takot

Ang lungkot na bumabalot sa puso kong mahina.

para akong isang ibong nasa hawla.

di makawala.

Pagod na sa pagkakulong.

sana'y tuluyan ng makawala.