Minsan pilitin mo mang salubungin ng ngiti ang paglubog ng araw

madalas sumasabay sa pagkalat ng dilim

ang takot sa sarili.

Takot na baka di na muling masilayan ang araw.

Minsan pilitin mo mang kalimutan ang nakaraan, Gaya ng pagsapit ng gabi

ito'y kusang dumadating.

Di maiwasang matakot.

Matakot na baka bukas di ka silayan ng araw

at patuloy kang lamunin ng lungkot at takot.

Minsan panalangin ng puso kong pagod

sana wala ng gabi.

sana wala na ang lukot at takot na kaakibat sa pagsapit nito.

Upang makatulog ng mahimbing.

upang saya ang laging nadarama.

Hanggang ngayon ay di mawari kung saan galing ang takot

Ang lungkot na bumabalot sa puso kong mahina.

para akong isang ibong nasa hawla.

di makawala.

Pagod na sa pagkakulong.

sana'y tuluyan ng makawala.

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Male, 26, Married
Member Since: Apr 2004
Location: Philippines
Hometown: cebu
Last Login: 2 days

beLIEve

remember

remember how i said i like you?

remember how you said its ok?

remember the full moons?

remember how i said i admire you?

remember how you ignored me at first?

and avoid the thought of falling again?

remember how u shared your past?

remeber how i said its ok?

remember how i said im starting to fall for you?

and said im willing to take the risk?

remember how we decided to meet?

over a cup of coffee.

remember how we savored the moment?

remember how we caught each other looking at each other?

remember how i said i like you?

remember the night we meet again?

remember how long have i waited?

remember how i said im ok when you arrived?

remember the things we talked about?

remember the chocolate cake?

remeber how we walked a few walks

and talked.

remember the kiss at the backseat of the love bus?

remember how we parted and kissed each other goodnight.

remember how we describe each day having each other?

remember how we said we're happy?

how we said we want to grow old together?

remember our first night together?

how we kissed?

how you said you love me?

how i said i love you with all my life?

remeber our first fight?

the second,third and fourth fight?

how we planned to stand up again holding each others hand after the fight?

remember how i love you?

do you remember me saying ?

remember how i promised?

do you believe?

I LOVE YOU AND IT'S TRUE.

my drowned world...

And in this dark harvest of season.My life completely lost all reason,For which or against to decide.All lost in a savage, endless tide In a boat made of hope I sail to tomorrow,In a winding hurricane made of: light and darkness, Love and kindness and treachery and sorrow.There’s a spear, endless, and colossal spear...Piercing, slashing though my head. Starting somewhere in heaven, ending somewhere in hell.Fighting, burning, crying, crashing.Are the armies within.In my head they are all thrashing.On the heaven’s and hell’s whim.To be light or to be darkness.A perpetual array.It’s not merely my choice,But the choice of the way.It’s a option of the voice,It’s a thin line of gray. Is it a choice forced by fate,Or a choice to which I myself sway?But here’s our story anyway….“Nothing that I do will matter.As all things will merely shatter!”All my hopes thus darkness scatter,As it shoves me a decree.As it simply wants to win,And to just take over me.“Have a purpose, bend the world,Act out upon your wishes, and ______ will love you a lot”That’s what light then says to me, Because it wants to set me free.Winning slightly over me.“But this cage of gold so shiny, it will shield you from untrueAnd protect you from the odd,Nothing inside its walls can harm you, In your own little world!”Whispers darkness in my ear, “Only me you should now hear,And with me you will survive,And with my help you will strive,And achieve your paradise,In illusion’s disguise!With no hardships and no pain,Every task you will then tame!”The light sternly yells at me:“These are lies as they can be!If your world is build on lies,Then yourself you will despise.And illusion’s paradise,Will fall down on you.Crashing, burning, dying, crying are your dreams And uprooted is your tree!And no longer will you seeWhere to go or what to be!When you face your final trial, what will the judge say to thee?”“These are lies and mere dogma,Based upon the fear of death!”Darkness then just yells at me:“You have your right to disagree!Make a lovely pact with me.I will offer you salvation,No more fear or deprivation!If you would me then just hear,You have nothing at all to fear.Since we do not have a soul.There’s nothing with which to pay a toll!Sign here, over there.In the name of pleasure and hope.In the name of revolution,Let your path be just a gentle slope!”It’s arguments are winning over me,And thus with darkness I agree,And so I sign the decree,And with a treacherous and jolly gleeDarkness enshrouding, standing over me“With the light here once and for all undoneYou and I shall become one!”And so, I enter into the storm of shadows.As pitch-black as the depths of sea.Become a mere castaway, amidst the weary crowds.Consumed by somber, ashen clouds,With heavens frowning over me.A storm of ice and fire, dancing all around with a glee.A ring chrono-storm encapsulating me.Just like a stove turned up to high degree.Tearing up roads, buildings, picking up debris.Into the air it takes me.My wings have turned to blackened ashThe pacifying, freezing fear taking overMy heart is covered in frost And all I wished, is to be free…