W A R N I N G !

"Ang dami mu insecurities.

Sa buhay, sa trabaho, sa relasyon. And just to

compensate for these insecurities you make other

pe ople miserable with

their own lives."

- Khalel.

W A R N I N G !

Avoid having the guy in the picture as your friend!

"Love me...then hate me..."

"I am nothing but a pain in the ass!"

"that I would be good even if i did nothing
that I would be good even if i got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds
that i would be fine even even if I went bankrupt
that i would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that i would be great if I was no longer queen
that i would be grand if i was not all knowing
that i would be loved even when i numb myself
that i would be good even when i am overwhelmed
that i would be loved even when i was fuming
that i would be good even if i was clingy
that i would be good even if i lost sanity
that i would be good
whether with or without you "

- Mantra

mantra and the forbidden questions!

1. How old were you when you lost your virginity?
I was touched when i was 7 years old by our straight neighbor.

2. Worst thing done while drunk?
throw empty bottles at the crowd.

3. Have you slept with a Multiply contact?
never.

4. Have you ever cheated when you were in a relationship?
never.

5. How far how you gone to check if your partner is cheating you?
Sneaking on his mobile while he's asleep or when he's at the bathroom. I even ask him to give me his cellphone.

6. Mancrush [Girlcrush], 1 local and 1 foreign celebrity?
Local: Dennis Trillo
Foreign: Brendan Fehr

7. Last time you pleasured yourself?
Just this morning.

8. How big is your wang (dick-size)?
6.5 inches.

9. What's the 8th message on your inbox, and who sent it?
From Mcc Joey: "pasensya na at baka mamaya makapa pa kita!" Goodluck sa kin!

10. Kissed in public?
Yes with my girl bestfriend!

11. How many one-night stands did you have?
3! im sure of it.

12. Craziest place you've done it with?
Right beside my bf's mother. (take note: we sleep together in one bed!) i just love the rush!

13. Have you slept with anyone famous?
Yes. Once.

14. Do you have a Sex tape out there? In YouTube? In Multiply? Or naked pictures?
None I can remember.

15. Have you been in a threesome?
Haven't.

16. Tried illegal drugs. What drugs?
YES. E! and Valium.

17. How many (if you can still count them) have you slept with?
Can't remember.

18-24. Dude we all know you’re gay, so just admit it.
Uma.Piolo.Marvin Agustin.

25. Have you ever had an indecent proposal?
Many times and counting

26. The worst billboard in Edsa.
Ellen's Beauty Clinic.

27. Funniest TV Commercial.
VCO shampoo commercial! Male version.

28. When was the last time you watched or read a porn material?
Just now.

29-34. If you can use an email to describe 5 people plus yourself, what would that be?
pass.

35. What will be your pornstar name and what will be the title of your first porn movie?
Ian pa din. Balatan ko ang saging mo!

36. Worst TV show?
Mostly from GMA.

37. Spit or Swallow?Spit.

38. Longest time when you were "doing it" with someone?
5 hours

39. Shortest time?
3 minutes?

40. Last time you had sex with someone?July 1, 2007

*some questions require multiple answers (FQ 18 and 29). If you don't complete the anwers to these questions, answer the "optional" questions below.
Worst thing you did to your friend?
Iwanan sya nung hoholdapin nako.so sya ang naholdap!

What's your favorite sex position? Missionary.

If you HAVE TO sleep with a multiply contact, who would that be? I dont go for it.

What's ONE secret that you haven't revealed to anyone but you're willing to reveal here? I love chocolates!

PINK of Health

I'm lyin' here on the floor

where you left me

I think I took too much

I'm crying here,

what have you done?

I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support,

there's ashortage in the switch,

I can't stay on your morphine,

cuz its making me itch

I said I tried to call the nurse again

but shes being a little bitch,

I think I'll get outta here,

where I can Run

just as fast as I can

To the middle of nowhere

To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill

Instead of makin' me better,

you keep makin' me ill

You keep makin' me ill

I haven't moved from the spot

where you left me

This must be a bad trip

All of the other pills,

they were different

Maybe I should get some help

I can't stay on your life support,

there's ashortage in the switch,

I can't stay on your morphine,

cuz its making me itch

I said I tried to call the nurse again

but shes being a little bitch,

I think I'll get outta here,

where I can

Run just as fast as I can

To the middle of nowhere

To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill

Instead of makin' me better,

you keep makin' me ill

You keep makin' me ill

Thanks for making me FIGHTER!

my mask

How could you stand just watching me

slowly fade from this place?

I seemed so happy

to put on my clown face.

How could you only sit there,

As I scattered,

pieces in the wind?

Finally I found a place where I could belong,

No need for a ‘wish I could be there face’.

I sat there naked and you just stared,

You offered me no hope.

I fell to pieces.

A crumpled pile of lost dreams,

The land of lonely things.

You gave me no comfort when I was bare,

Silent and all alone.

No tear you shed for my broken body,

Only when I was beautiful,

You gave me a place that I could call home.

My rage, my wrath, my face, my mask,

What was it all for?

You didn’t love me for me,

You only loved the mask,

that covered the me before.

mantra on politics

i really hate politics. i hardly speak on where i stand about politics. yes, i have my list of who i think deserves a spot on senate or malacanang but i choose to discuss it with myself. yes, with myself! Minsan pagnagkataong may mga kasama ako and make comments about politicians or the president, honestly, they irritate me. Kung magsalita kasi parang alam lahat. wala ka na marinig kundi puro reklamo. kesyo, di na umasenso ang pilipinas. kesyo kilalang kurakot,madaming kabit o sugalero. minsan kriminal pa daw. Ang di ko lang maintindihan ay kung bakit imbes na pag aralan nalang muna nila kung ano ang nakakabuti para sa bansa at saka nila tignan kung anu na nagawa ng nakaupo. Hindi yung puro dada at magrereklamo maghapon dahil hindi nagustuhan ang nagawa ng kasalukuyang presidente. Ano nga ba ang totoo? ano nga ba ang alam mo? Mahirap kasi sa mga pinoy gusto pag may binoto at nakaupo na ay sa loob ng isang araw ay mapapaganda na kaagad ang buhay nila. Na malalagyan na kaagad ng laman mga tiyan nila. Na maayos na kaagad mga buhay nila samantalang sila sa sarisariling buhay nila ay puro naman tamad. Maraming beses ko na narinig na si Presidente Gloria ay hindi nararapat sa pagjkakaupo nito sa malacanang kasi sa syang kurap at mandarambong. At madalas ibida si Erap kasi para daw sa mahirap. Pero napagaan ba ni erap ang buhay ng mahihirap? hindi ba sya naging kurap? hindi ba sya babaero? at sugalero? ano nga ba ang nagawa nya sa ekonomiya? sa buhay nag bawat pilipino? ano ba ang nagawa ni erap sa PISO? sa milyon milyong pinoy na wala trabaho? di ko lang talaga maintindihan kung bakit tayong mga pinoy mahilig magreklamo. Sa sarili naman nating buhay mga tamad at umaasa lang tayo.Pag di nakuntento kung ano anong paninira ang naiisip sa nakaupo. Hay! nagpapagod ka lang sa kakadada. di ako nagsasalita kasi pro-GMA ako...tignana lang natin mabuti kung ano ano na ang nagawa ng mga taong pinaniniwalaan natin.

Minsan pilitin mo mang salubungin ng ngiti ang paglubog ng araw

madalas sumasabay sa pagkalat ng dilim

ang takot sa sarili.

Takot na baka di na muling masilayan ang araw.

Minsan pilitin mo mang kalimutan ang nakaraan, Gaya ng pagsapit ng gabi

ito'y kusang dumadating.

Di maiwasang matakot.

Matakot na baka bukas di ka silayan ng araw

at patuloy kang lamunin ng lungkot at takot.

Minsan panalangin ng puso kong pagod

sana wala ng gabi.

sana wala na ang lukot at takot na kaakibat sa pagsapit nito.

Upang makatulog ng mahimbing.

upang saya ang laging nadarama.

Hanggang ngayon ay di mawari kung saan galing ang takot

Ang lungkot na bumabalot sa puso kong mahina.

para akong isang ibong nasa hawla.

di makawala.

Pagod na sa pagkakulong.

sana'y tuluyan ng makawala.

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beLIEve

remember

remember how i said i like you?

remember how you said its ok?

remember the full moons?

remember how i said i admire you?

remember how you ignored me at first?

and avoid the thought of falling again?

remember how u shared your past?

remeber how i said its ok?

remember how i said im starting to fall for you?

and said im willing to take the risk?

remember how we decided to meet?

over a cup of coffee.

remember how we savored the moment?

remember how we caught each other looking at each other?

remember how i said i like you?

remember the night we meet again?

remember how long have i waited?

remember how i said im ok when you arrived?

remember the things we talked about?

remember the chocolate cake?

remeber how we walked a few walks

and talked.

remember the kiss at the backseat of the love bus?

remember how we parted and kissed each other goodnight.

remember how we describe each day having each other?

remember how we said we're happy?

how we said we want to grow old together?

remember our first night together?

how we kissed?

how you said you love me?

how i said i love you with all my life?

remeber our first fight?

the second,third and fourth fight?

how we planned to stand up again holding each others hand after the fight?

remember how i love you?

do you remember me saying ?

remember how i promised?

do you believe?

I LOVE YOU AND IT'S TRUE.

my drowned world...

And in this dark harvest of season.My life completely lost all reason,For which or against to decide.All lost in a savage, endless tide In a boat made of hope I sail to tomorrow,In a winding hurricane made of: light and darkness, Love and kindness and treachery and sorrow.There’s a spear, endless, and colossal spear...Piercing, slashing though my head. Starting somewhere in heaven, ending somewhere in hell.Fighting, burning, crying, crashing.Are the armies within.In my head they are all thrashing.On the heaven’s and hell’s whim.To be light or to be darkness.A perpetual array.It’s not merely my choice,But the choice of the way.It’s a option of the voice,It’s a thin line of gray. Is it a choice forced by fate,Or a choice to which I myself sway?But here’s our story anyway….“Nothing that I do will matter.As all things will merely shatter!”All my hopes thus darkness scatter,As it shoves me a decree.As it simply wants to win,And to just take over me.“Have a purpose, bend the world,Act out upon your wishes, and ______ will love you a lot”That’s what light then says to me, Because it wants to set me free.Winning slightly over me.“But this cage of gold so shiny, it will shield you from untrueAnd protect you from the odd,Nothing inside its walls can harm you, In your own little world!”Whispers darkness in my ear, “Only me you should now hear,And with me you will survive,And with my help you will strive,And achieve your paradise,In illusion’s disguise!With no hardships and no pain,Every task you will then tame!”The light sternly yells at me:“These are lies as they can be!If your world is build on lies,Then yourself you will despise.And illusion’s paradise,Will fall down on you.Crashing, burning, dying, crying are your dreams And uprooted is your tree!And no longer will you seeWhere to go or what to be!When you face your final trial, what will the judge say to thee?”“These are lies and mere dogma,Based upon the fear of death!”Darkness then just yells at me:“You have your right to disagree!Make a lovely pact with me.I will offer you salvation,No more fear or deprivation!If you would me then just hear,You have nothing at all to fear.Since we do not have a soul.There’s nothing with which to pay a toll!Sign here, over there.In the name of pleasure and hope.In the name of revolution,Let your path be just a gentle slope!”It’s arguments are winning over me,And thus with darkness I agree,And so I sign the decree,And with a treacherous and jolly gleeDarkness enshrouding, standing over me“With the light here once and for all undoneYou and I shall become one!”And so, I enter into the storm of shadows.As pitch-black as the depths of sea.Become a mere castaway, amidst the weary crowds.Consumed by somber, ashen clouds,With heavens frowning over me.A storm of ice and fire, dancing all around with a glee.A ring chrono-storm encapsulating me.Just like a stove turned up to high degree.Tearing up roads, buildings, picking up debris.Into the air it takes me.My wings have turned to blackened ashThe pacifying, freezing fear taking overMy heart is covered in frost And all I wished, is to be free…

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d'you know the feeling?

A few questions that I need to know how you could ever hurt me so I need to know what I've done wrong and how long it's been going on? Was it that I never paid enough attention? Or did I not give enough affection? Not only will your answers keep me sane but I'll know never to make the same mistake again You can tell me to my face or even on the phone You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know Did I never treat you right?Did I always start the fight?Either way, I'm going out of my mindall the answers to my questionsI have to find

My head's spinning Boy, I'm in a daze I feel isolated Don't wanna communicate
I'll take a shower, I will scour I will rub To find peace of mind The happy mind I once owned, yeah
Vexing vocabulary runs right through me The alphabet runs right from A to Z Conversations, hesitations in my mind You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazyI'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, noI'm just waiting'Cause I heard this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low When you gonna take me out of this black hole? Never ever have I ever felt so sad The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind I've Never ever had my conscience to fight The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

I'll keep searching Deep within my soul For all the answers Don't wanna hurt no more
I need peace, got to feel at easeNeed to be.Free from pain - going insane My heart aches, yeah
Sometimes vocabulary runs right through my head The alphabet runs right from A to Z Conversations, hesitations in my mind You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy,I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong I'm just waiting'Cause I heard this feeling won't last that long
Never ever have I ever felt so low When ya gonna take me out of this black hole? Never ever have I ever felt so sad The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind I've Never ever had my conscience to fight The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right
You can tell me to my face,You can tell me on the phone, Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe'Cause I really need to know
You can tell me to my face You can tell me on the phone, You can write it in a letter, bab'Cause I really need to know
You can write it in a letter, babeYou can write it in a letter, babe

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- i bet you know the feeling. MANTRA

I LOVE YOU BIBI!

happy anniversary! i love you 'til my last breath!

March 12 2006

christina, Im your slave!

dont look at me
Im nothin but a headache.

THE JOY AND PAIN OF LOVING

you won't hear the cries of the crying

if you keep talking louder than them

or know the loneliness of the homeless

if you just head home again

or the emptiness of the hungry

if you make sure to get your part

and you'll never feel pain in your life

if you turn off your heart

you won't feel the loss of losing

if you never play the game

or need to get involved with others if you can put it off another

day

or mend the hearts of the broken

if you can just fix the cards

and you'll never feel pain in your life

if you turn off your heart

but you won't know the warmth of a smile

if you keep yourself cold inside

or the beauty of a sunset

if you set your feelings aside

or the joy of a happy ending

if you never let yourself start

and you'll never feel love in your life

if you turn off your heart

H U R T

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you